Ideal love

People will hurt you, that is a fact. You might choose to be in denial but truth be told, you are going to get your heart shattered into pieces. I looked at my so called ex yesterday and realised that I felt nothing for her anymore. A thought came to mind as I was busy analysing my feelings, if I don't anymore were my feelings genuine? I loved her more than I loved myself but there comes a point where you say I have had enough. You see when living you have to know yourself-worth or else people will walk over you again and again. People never seem to give you their real self at the door, the thought of that actually scares me. This actually gives more reason to how I act the way I do. I'm growing up but on the inside I'm still the 12 year old boy who promised never to give his heart away to love because I really never saw anybody who was an example. I think I hate the ideal of love... Fuck it I quit!

Miracles

They say miracles only happened in the past, you only need to go to the mirror and you will see a miracle starring right back at you. We look too far for miracles when they happen every day. Listening to my mother’s story about how I was born, I thank God every day because I’m lucky to be alive. 25 was the year I was aiming for, after that it was said it all depended on luck. I’m still going strong, I am not stopping anytime soon, and this ticker needs to tick as it is fighting against the hands of time

Free music

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I call them Fam

We live but we are far from living. The noise in our heads limits our capabilities and abilities. A moments rest is imagined but even then that’s noise. I lay awake thinking and hoping for a breakthrough, an opportunity but who defines that opportunity, is it me or the man next to me. It feels like my destiny is in someone’s hands. How does one have absolute control without money? Is that even possible? I have heard of men starting from humble beginnings. There is nothing humble about being poor. Maybe it should be called “from disgrace beginnings.” The truth doesn’t sit well does it? The world is ruled by bankers, they talk about us in numbers, forgetting the human soul and sometimes I wonder if they have souls at all. We are slaves of the complex world that we created. We go to schools of higher learning so as to specialize in this complex web of a system. A lost generation, leaders don’t know the way and those that do are sidelined because they think different. Nations are falling on their knees because of a few individuals that are greedy. … It's human nature right *shake my head* (to be continued)