Let go and live.

I have a forgiving heart and I don’t know where I get it from because mom was kind but never forgiving and dad…. well he is the revenge kind. I don’t know if it’s the situation that I am in that forces me to forgive or maybe if I had means to be revengeful the tone would be different but I haven’t had the urge to be revengeful at all. Having to look the person that you believe caused the biggest pain in your life on the daily is deadly, especially for your inner deity. Just days before my mother passed away in my hands we talked about letting go as if she knew I was to have this battle inside of me. I look at people who are the source of pain; they are living as if nothing happened and expecting me to smile. At first to them hate was inevitable but to their surprise I was chilled, nothing of anger or hate emotions came from my side. Hate is like cancer, it eats you from the inside. Tupac said “don’t let them see you cry because they rejoice when your soul dies.”