Words of a son about his father

Growing up I looked up to my father. We never really had the best of relationships but we got along. Living in the world of Chronos, I look at him as he fades in time and I becoming a man. It scary watching your hero fall, although I wouldn’t go as far as calling him a hero but once upon a time in my little hands and mind he was. With time everything changes, what you thought was is never really as you saw it but just another lie. Comparing my dad with my grandfather, he is a saint; I see how lucky I am to have had him even though he never really got me. I doubt that my dad really could have words to describe me and I to describe him but in that midst of confusion I still say “no one can take care of family like family”. I could never really say “I love you” to my dad or mom, it was always assumed but I swear to God I love that man. Looking at it now as I am growing older, I can see that he really did try. He didn’t give it all but damn right he tried. I am scared of disappointing him but I think that is inevitable. No man is perfect especially him but through all of that he is blood and I forgive him for all the pain he caused my mother and I, for those actions he did intentionally and those he was not aware of. He is a proud man but his apologies can be seen through actions that leave one puzzled. Seeing myself as I grow, I see him in me every day. I am turning into a man that I have been avoiding to be like my whole entire life. All this time I have been running away from me. The time for running has come to a halt, its time to accept who I am and upgrade from what I am to something that I could be. Its time to elevate self, evaluate my state of mind and reinvent who I am. I am raising this bar higher for I and lets see if I can jump and catch it. I definitely don’t know who will be reading this but I hope you can relate. These are words from a son about his father, maybe you are a father or maybe you are a son, all I am saying is don’t waste time, love with all your heart and give it your all because the best we can do is to try,